It's the flu. I thought I was mired in a deep depression and I was gonna have to either go to a therapist or take drugs or kill myself, because I felt so terrible, and had for a number if days and it was compounded by no sleep. When you can't sleep it ruins you. Alcoholism wasn't fixing anything. But today I got the chills and a fever and now I know I am sick, not just mentally broken, which is a relief. Sometimes I think I may be about to lose my mind because my family members tend to lose it and be manic depressive or bipolar or whatever other form of crazy anxiety and depression and loss of sanity. I guess this flu epidemic isn't a media hype thing.
